As we move into this new year, the focus remains inward, yet the energy around us has begun to shift ever so slightly. There is a new vibration calling us to prepare for what is to come, well at least it is calling me.
While I look out the window this morning, with a fresh blanket of snow covering the ground, I understand that things are not lifeless and frozen. They are resting and preparing. Pulling energy from the ground and making plans to reawaken and emerge – as the same, yet different. The trees will bud, but not in the same way as last year. Tulips will once again bloom, but maybe not in the same shade or size. The birds will build nests, in the same way they did the year before but maybe with different materials or in a different location.
I am in the process of doing the same.
A year ago I believed things would look different for me than they do. I believed that the doors to La victoria Healing Kitchen would be open – to my friends new and old, my family and the community. I thought that I would be able to pull my table and chairs out of storage, and that my dining room would no longer be my office. I was hopeful in the idea of finally being able to hire a full time employee at oh zhoo. I thought that I would get to see smiles and frowns again, instead of patterned masks. I believed I would finally overcome some of my internal fears.
None of these things have come to be. However the journey and path taken to get to this time and place has been full of lessons, beauty and gifts that I had not yet envisioned.
I continue to look inward, reflecting. Proud of what has been accomplished, and in recognition of what is being created. As I do, I am grounding myself in the energy of this powerful natural cycle, and gathering strength from it. I am in the process of organizing and planning, preparing to reemerge, as myself but different.
I don’t know what it will all look and feel like, how it’s all going to come together, or when it will. I simply know that the intention of La victoria Healing Kitchen is firmly rooted, and it too will emerge in the months to come